We have been trying to conceive for 3 years now. It has been a difficult journey so far. I have had fertility issues. PCOS and cysts on my ovaries. It took 9 years for me to hold Danny in my arms so I have learnt patience!!!
In Nov '10 we had our first little angel.....I got a positive pregnancy test and was so excited but within hours I started bleeding....I was a day late.....And I was so shattered...seeing those 2 lines to mean means instant uncondtional lifetime love.....We decided to keep trying and the very next cycle I fell pregnant again. Hubby saw the test I thought surely this is it but I started spotting and my GP said there was still a chance everything was ok but on the 23rd of december It was confirmed little Laykin (means precious treasure) had flown to be with with our other little angel.......The next 8 months went by with highest of highs with me ovulating well and then lowest of lows from negative tests......In Sept on the 12th 2011 I went out with friends I was CD27 and waiting for my period to come.....I had one sip of Burbon and that was it...I had that beautiful feeling of all day sickness....you know that feeling of feeling so so so hungry that it makes you sick but when you eat that makes you sick too!!! I waited til I was CD34 18DPO before I told hubby as ovulation was timed I knew exactly when I ovulated and there is no 18dpo...... I told hubby at 4am I was pregnant. I started spotting a few hours later, but it was all old blood so I felt relieved and still sick and tired.....The doctors test came back negative 2 days later......but I did a FR and it was positive......but it wasn't to be...after more spotting and a blood test I waited to lose little poppy seed....I lost him or her 3 weeks later naturally.
Since then we have taken a break. I wasn't sure if I could go through all of this again...we are tentatively starting again but I refuse to use clomid again.....So we will see how things go!! watch this space.....
Tues 13th March 2012
Well I have cysts on my ovaries...large ones sighs.....no wonder im in the pain I am......and guess what...no chance of ovulation til they go away. So I guess that's gods way of saying not yet sweetie.....My journey has taught me so much patience but it has also given me untold frustration!!!!!!
14th March 2012
Made it to Cd25 today. I am still in lots of pain in my pelvis. At the moment I am just recording my cycle....
Friday 23rd of March
Well was it cysts or was it ovulation!!!!!! I had a huge glump of EWCM on the 9th of March (I was cd19) too late for ovulation or so I thought.....AF arrived today..spotting soooooooooo cd1 will be tomorrow and that will be a 32 day cycle. When you count back between the 9th and 11th would of made perfect timing for ovulation OMFG did my body actually really work the way it is meant too!! for the first time since I started this long TTC journey!!!! After ovulation with Clomid and pregnyl I would have cramps the rest of the cycle....I wonder if that is what my pain has been. I have a refferal for an u/s but I will wait til cd13ish to see if there are any follies growing!!!! YAY FOR YOU BODY!!
